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Pondering...

My 76 year old aunt left the world yesterday. But she left lots of good memories for her 8 children I guess. Kakak, her eldest daughter could not fly home from Cairo cause of time constraint. But she witnessed everything via web cam. Thank god for hi-technology. Otherwise she would have to wait for a video file or something.

When I was at the graveyard for the burial, I was struck by so many thoughts, guilty thoughts especially when the guy was saying some prayers and reminding us about life and death, the world and the world 6 feet down below. I haven't been close to Him. I haven't been a good Muslim. And I am not even talking about being a great, obedient Muslim. I just want to be an average Muslim; one with strong faith and one who follows our beliefs. I want to change for the better but I don't know why I keep procrastinating the change. Life is short but I am still in my own world...

My mum always reminds me not to live for the world now but live for the world we will be in after we die. Whatever we do in this world will be accounted for the comfort of life after death. This is so true... I heard so many stories about life after death. What will happen as soon as your family members stepped 7 steps away from your grave, what will happen in that world before Qiamat..

All these questions and pondering in my head. I want answer badly but I don't know if I have the guts to hear them all...